Already in Gokarna in India I was told from a Midwife that the best hospital in Berlin is called Havelhoehe. I didn't know this hospital and place but I called them and ask to save my place for birth. Also I was a little concerned about that I couldn't find a midwife in Berlin. Even I didn't know where to stay. I called many people, even my family couldn't help me. Many problems I had to face. I felt very lonely. With Hari I had a lot of fights too and a difficult time, because many people tried to come in our way and make our life difficult. Somehow we managed everything and the last 2 batches in Gokarna of the YTTC where so great. We got new volunteers and teacher. We are surrounded by many lovely people, that helped me a lot. Hari and me worked from morning to night. It was a tough time. Again Jay saved me and told I can stay with him. What an angel he is, unbelievable. I am very much blessed to have him still as a good friend! ...So much... I could now go to Berlin back. Third of April I was flying than from India to Berlin and I went to this Havelhoehe hospital, which was quite far away from Friedrichshain - Lichtenberg, where Jay and me stayed. But still I was feeling the blessings again. Wow, it was the place where the Yoga festival was. Here my new life had begun. In this place Yoga became part of my life. I met here many people who influenced my life, like Swami Muktanand Puri. He thought me first time about Bhagavad Gita and Samkhya Philosophy. Definitely it was the right place to get my child. Also the nature, the forest and river are such a beautiful surrounding. On July 16th my beloved Mia Kumari Pawali was born. We needed 4 days to find a name. It was very difficult to wait so long for me. The astrologer from Hari had to tell the letter for the name. Than finally he told "M" ... Haha, anyway I had the name Mia already in my mind. :) Perfect! :) Morning 5AM i begun to feel some pain, similar to menstruation pain. I couldn't sleep then anymore and at 8AM I wrote the time of the contractions which became more and more intense. I called the hospital and they told me that the constructions have to become stabil and all 5-10 min for at least 1-2 min long. Around 12 PM I thought the pain is enough and contractions become stabil, so we called the taxi to the hospital.1 Pm we reached the hospital and they checked me and told I have to wait. So we thought we go and eat something. During the lunch the pain became so much and we finished fast and went slowly back. I had to stop very often because of the contraction pain. 2 Pm I could go inside the birth room (Kreissaal) and I decided to try a water birth. After 1 hour of pressing contraction I had to go out and lay down. That was so painful. I had to press very much. 4:45PM Mia came with a big last screaming of mine and I was so happy I had a natural birth. She even began instantly to suck on my breast to drink. Such a clever child. The days went fast in the hospital and I learned how to be a mother. :) Mimi, my good friend who I know from SVYASA came also when Mia was born. She helped me a lot and brought her and me home. Hari came in June and I moved from Jay's home to Lichterfelde, in a Airbnb apartment. That was our home until August. Jay had to leave from middle of August to middle of september his flat to go to india, so he gave it to us. Again very very nice. I hope I can do something for him in future... Now we are lucky and got our Birth Certificate at the right time to get Passport and Visa. All this work is done. Now Hari has to become Indian citizen, that Mia can get OCI Card imediatly and me too after 2 years... We had to pay 260 Euro for 1 year Indian Visa. Here are some photos of our small family... Much of Love, Stefanie
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We are all familiar with movies and TV shows that make city life look like a ramp walk in the best fashion show of the year; everyone’s confident and smiling. Even in the midst of conflict, the perfect hair flips deliver the punch. We are all also familiar with how different real life is. In between work and social events, there is panic, anxiety, and very often, a lack of self-esteem. Various factors lead to these emotional and bodily reactions, and here are 4 ways yoga can help you overcome them. 1) Build Awareness You may find yourself feeling unreasonably low at certain points of the day; a certain remark might make you anxious or very conscious of your perceived shortcomings. Whatever it may be, the first step towards resolving it is becoming aware of the cause and your reaction to it. Yoga helps you practice better control over your mind, spirit and body, and makes you aware of your potential as well as limitations. Once you reach a balance, you are able to eliminate all negative thoughts and build your confidence on a strong foundation. 2) Improve your Body LanguageAs you indulge in yoga, your mind will expand its horizons and your body will start to feel energised and more at ease with its surroundings. This will reflect in your postures and mannerisms, and you will notice a significant difference in your body language. 3) Self-soothingVery often, we end up in severely unpleasant situations. The reactions vary from fight to flight, and confidence jumps out of the window. In such events, it is important to know how to calm yourself, and respond to your surroundings accordingly. Yoga helps you concentrate on your breathing patterns, and makes the body follow the mind into a calm state. Your mind and body begin to assess situations realistically once more, and you accept that nothing is as bad as it seems. Link to our Yoga School in India: https://shreehariyoga.com 4) Strengthen your Body & Mind Yoga helps you reconcile your mind to your body, and strengthens each of them. For example, the Warrior III (Virabhadrasana III) pose requires as much balance as strength. You are required to focus on one point in front of you, and keep your breath even and slow as you exercise your body.
The Forearm Plank (Makara Adho Mukha Svanasana) similarly builds your body’s core strength, and requires you to concentrate as well. The Half Moon Pose (Ardha Chandrasana) needs you to trust your own instinct and body, and find a balance between the two. This pose is known to improve self-esteem significantly, as it urges one to synchronise their mind to their body, and become more aware of each. These are some simple, and yet highly effective ways in which yoga can help you have a healthier and more confident body and mind. Enroll today for Shree Hari Yoga’s Teacher Training Courses and learn to embrace peace and confidence, and spread the knowledge to make a positive difference in lives all around you. Namaste,
Long time ago that I wrote. Sorry, my new life with Shree Hari Yoga school is very intense. We do every month yoga teacher trainings which is very intense. But also very interesting. The group dynamic is very different from group to group. I learned that I love to make people happy, but that I have to take care about my own energy too. I do not only teach Yoga, I also teach Yoga therapy, mantra and meditation. Sometimes also Pranayama. Most of all I do administration work, web design and photography and videos. Many different things, so I don't have much time to write in my blog. But I will try. Also at https://shreehariyoga.com I write blog. You will read there more about Yoga and Yoga teacher trainings. But still I write about India and my experiences. I never thought about so many changes in such a short time. It is crazy. I wanted to have my own family after my studies in SVYASA. Somehow all was leading me to Hari and his School. Shree Hari Yoga became my home. June 2017 I went to them in Dharamshala and 2018 I became pregnant. Now I will have my family. Much faster than I thought. :) But I am happy. I hope the universe choose the right path for me. But I trust and go still with the flow. Of course it is not easy... Many bridges and borders to cross... Visa, lifestyle, hygiene etc... and some of my dearest like Jay I hurt very much. I still love them, but I need to carry on, go my way and what should I do, if I can not make them happy. Everyone has to live their own life. I hope I don't loose him. But I will try to manage everything. Yoga, my friends, my new life partner hari and a baby soon...I will write again... until then... Love and light, Stefanie Namaste! I went to Dharamshala, to Shree Hari Yoga school. If you like to be in the hot indian summer in a very nice place in Himalaya, you should come to Dharamshala. In upper Bhagsu is our school. It is a lovely yoga school with the best teacher from everywhere from this world. The main teacher is half indian, half nepali and the philosophy teacher is a real baba from kerala in India and very famous for his philosophy books. Check the video I made and get convinced. I love this new place! I think I will grow here a lot!!! <3 https://shreehariyoga.com/ Only 9 Days are left of my internship and some few days more in SVYASA. I will also go to the Art of Living Ashram, visit my friend Eman. I will not say goodbye, I think I will come back in some time again, but it will take a long time maybe. I am thinking now about the time how everything began, when I was getting fired to come here... it funny how the point of few is keep on changing. Now my path goes back to germany for 1 month, than to Dharamshala, to Hari Yoga. Again I will let go people and new people will come into my life, again I will learn many things about life and spirituallity. It is not always comfortable to go the right path, but the feeling I am doing the right thing is there. Even if my family don`t have faith, I do have it. What I learned now is to have faith. Everything what happen in our life is to learn and to get rid of Karmic releations which are holding us in the circle of life I believe. I will keep on changing and still be the same. My desires are keep on changing, my way to look on life is changing, the way I think about Love and how I love is changing. I want to accept more things in life as they are, every situation and peoples behavior. For emotional people like me not easy, but when we reflect ourself more, it can give a great feeling of freedom and blow up negative feelings. We can even reflect our behavior with others, or just others without judgement. To understand eachothers behavior and accept it can be the key to peace. I speak about inner peace wich also leads to peace in the world. We need to begin with us, which is challenging but our responsibillity if we don`t won`t to live in ignorance.Love is not something that you do.
What I try to realize now as my next step is to experiance what Sadhguru & other Gurus are teaching. "Love is something that you are. Either you can use somebody as a support to make yourself loving or you can simply become loving. After all, it is not somebody else’s quality, it is your quality. You are using the other person as a key to open this up. But you can also open it up from inside without the help of the other person. Then it is definitely more enduring because when you open it with the other person’s help – nobody on this planet is 100% reliable. If you are trying to extract joy, love and pleasantness out of somebody, this is going to be disastrous for both the people. I am not saying it is better to live alone. I am saying the way you are should be determined by you. If this is so and you are here to share your love with people, if you are feeling wonderful and you want to share this with somebody, then it will be very beautiful." Namaste beautiful souls! I don`t know if it is my age or the feeling to be alone in a different world, but my longing for a soulpartner, a partner for real unconditional love on both sides is growing. I went to the most beautiful places, I shared my happiness and experiance with my beloved friends, but to know, this people will be only for some time in my life makes me feeling that I am not completely enjoying. I want to share my advantures with someone who can feel the divine path like me and go this way with me together, grow with me together and where a exchange of all this is taking place. I am not a religious person, but I believe in god beyond religion and pray that I will see who is this wonderful soul, hopefully soon. :o) "When a man and wife are united as true soul mates they will be one flesh, they will act in harmony and unison in body, mind, and soul; their souls will not act with different ideals, but as two bodies, two minds, two souls, with one ideal" http://www.yogananda.com.au/g/g_soulmates.html 12th and 13th Muhammad and me went to YSS retreat in Mysore and I learned my Gurujis techniques more intense. Also I could meet my friend Cem and cleared our missunderstanding we had last time. It was great! Than I went with Muhammad to Goa, spend there 1 week time with relaxing, Yoga at the beach and meeting my friend Pankaj who I met there last time with Nagaraj. We had a very nice time and I could even give a Yoga class to a group of 6 people. 19th of May I went than from Mysore to Gokarna with Muhammad, that was funny, actually we went by train and missed our station first, because nobody is anouncing it in the train and we couldn`t see any name also at the stations. We spend a night than 40km ahead somewhere and went to Gokarna next day. Morning we arrived Gokarna save and had time to check a good cottage. We found at kudle beach for 250inr and a cute cottage with some hippies around, who told us to join them at paradies beach. That was a great experiance too. This beach have no accomodation, you need a tent or something like this. I made a tent with our mosquito net from our cottage and a bed with sand, palm leaves and a blanked on top. Night we made a camp fire, shower we took with water from awell and food we had around andfrom the nearby village. It was great to live so simple closewith the nature. And first time in my life I could see glowingplankton there in the water. The ocean is glowing with every movement in the water, it is so much beautiful, my heart was full in bliss at this moment. I am really really blessed to experiance all this!!! Now I am sure that I am still on my right way, because everything is going smooth and all the spirits are supporting my way. I can see God in everything now, I learned to see with my heart. This feeling is so strong and joyful. I see that also God is emotional, we can see this in the varieties of the weather, the wind, sun and rain and especially in the oceans waves. We can see his streghth in the mountains, the rocks and God`s beauty in all the natures perfect beauty. Also the weather shows us that he cares about the world, all the world need for existence is given. But sometimes we don`t realise it, because he let us go through tough situation, to teach and form us. To show that still everything is still possible and that also we have to take care and do our duty to this life. He takes care about us and made our heart beating, our loungs breathing and our blood flowing to all our venes without that we need any efford. God is very creative, he is an artist, look at all this creatures on earth. I know God loves people on his path, I see this in my life now. It is so soothing...
Again and again, I have to remind myself... It is true, everything happens on its own at the right time... Nothing happen without reason and all is correct and usefull. Some people now how to live this knowledge, I still learn it. Madlen, a friend from Germany visited me very suprisingly. It was nice. She stayed with me for a week and I could show her around. I brought her to AOL and Pyramid Valley also. She does not plan anything, even not Visa, she just go where her heart is taking her and what feels right. I am spontaneous, but not so much, still I have the fear in me something could go wrong. But I see more and more with different people here that it is working. Maybe also because of this lesson she came. Same like Shivashanker, he is from Malaysia and came when Muhammad went to Vipasana. So I could spend a long time with Shankar. He have a gift what we all want to have... :-D If he gets an Idea, if he desire something, it will happen. At our Campus people use now his gift, even the Manager and our SVYASA Guruji. Unbelievable, he just told what we other studends tell since a long time, to clean the lakes and do something good for the environment. He have ann idea and it will happen. Its great! Shankar is an engineer thats why he can tell also about more details for construction and so on, but I don`t think from all students here he is the only one who had developing ideas and know how to do it. But because of him many changes will happen here here very quickly in this short time. I am sure. Anyway, this is also an example that right things happen at the right time, he came at the right time when he was needed, because now suspection is going on. The manager told that he tried many times before, and people just talked, but never anything happened. I am to tired to write details, but when I think about all, I learned from him to be patient also with projects. Muhammad also teaches me to go with the flow and plan not too much, because we don`t know exactly what is our way or good in the future. Than Madlen, she came so spontaneous, but there was never a problem. She even didn`t care for visa and still everything goes well. Her behavior and talking about listening to the heart teached me not to be fearfull about the visa or what will come after my studies in SVYASA and that I have to keep on following my heart and go my way without too much over thinking and with trust in the spirit. Life is so complex and beautiful, full of surprises. Always so many unexpected things happen for me since I am on the spiritual path. First I struggle and than everything becomes wonderfull! :) And the beauty is everything comes exactly at the right time. :o) Now I got finally after 1 year request a new room outside of the Girlshostel, yeeeeah! :-D ... I got Lea (the other MSC german lady) her room. Now I feel so much free... it is quite here and clean. My other room in the girlshostel became a lot of fungus after I went back from Mysore. It was so much disgusting... Now I have freedom back and I need not always to check the time when i finish my dinner or talk with people... it is wonderful! I got many new friends here from everywhere from the world. They did YIC and research and some begin long time couses. Also I met 2 sweet girls from Switzerland and a very nice Guy from Afghanistan. When we spoke to eachother it was like we know since a long time, even his humore is like mine... He is like a european, I never thought this people can be so much open minded. I am so glad I get this experience about people from everywhere to become more and more open minded. Yeah, we have a lot of fun here now! I am very happy! ^_^ ... We went to Pyramid Valley and several times to Art of living Ashram. Every day I learn something more and I can do my Yoga Practise. A funny story is that my Coordinator told me few weeks ago that everybody have to go to the Yoga exhibition in the City and we meet at 5am in the morning. I was waiting at this time, but nobody came... Than the Bus driver showed up at 5:30am and sill nobody came... So I had to go alone. A big bus only for me?! :-D So strange... Anyway, I went to the exhibition, there are also some more SVYASA student who arrived a day before, so I met some more people. We did 108 rounds of Suryanamaskara and than was a Yoga Competition and a lady convinced me to participate. I did participate and booom, I won first price! ^_^So nice! First time I do and won. :-D... But is ok, I don`t believe in competitions... But yes, its nice to be more confident. Yes, its a good life now. About our retreat...mhm, still we have no registration, but I believe, IF it is the right time it will happen, if not something else will show up. I decided now I will not go after the couse in May to Germany, I will check if I get a job in Bangalore or in Goa or else where. My confidence that everything happens for good and at the right time is growing. Life is an adventure! Enjoy! ^_^ <3 Om Shanti! <3
At the end of November I went with Nagaraj to Goa. He don`t earn much here, so I paid everything for us because I wanted so badly to do this beach Yoga Clip with him. He is awesome in Asanas! We had a nice week in Goa, I came to know more about him and also again more about indians. He is from a village and also traditional. Our thinking is very different, sometimes I even don`t expect this difference... I can`t explain... its just that I am so much more open and have this "I don`t mind" attitude where indians often get shy... But I made some good contacts and got also Job offers. I will return there in March and check it out. :o) Really, Goa is not like the rest of india. It is a crazy party area, but also hidden i found good & calm places for yoga. Everything you want you get and many internationals, many Israelis and Russians. Its a drug place, a crazy place... but there are also good and calm places in between. ;-) I also did my Volunteer teacher training program, or pre-teacher training program in Art of Living. It was very similar to DSN but longer and more active. I got new friends, like Zeba. A half american, half indian lady from California. I will go there now also in some time. :) It was realy good, but the tasks are very strange & hard for people who don`t believe that money & spirituality are too much connected… Anyway, I made good experience with AOL and learned a lot about myself and others and possibilities. I like the Ashram and the programs are good for people who need guidance and have money, but I feel now, that the time for me there to do more programs is over and Sri Sri is not my Guru. He didn`t connect to me. I am also not that rich person who can do several times the programs and volunteer just like that for fun for a long time without money… No I believe this "Robin Hood" Organization is good & India need it, but it is not my way I have to walk. But I am very grateful I could make this experience, and still I will do my practice I learned and go and enjoy the Ashram, also when I got this new feeling for SriSri. Paramahamsa Yogananda is my Sadhguru for now, that I understood. But it can also change I feel, everything will come at its time at the right moment. That also I experianced and learned. His lectures are hard to understand for me. He is using very old english language and many difficult words. But he is real, the spirit is real, so I just follow my heard and trust that everything I do and and learn is for good. Also the lectures I got in AOL are guided by Paramahamsaji as I explained at the beginning in my blog, when I got to know that "the art of living" is a organization and not only one of his books. :o) Christmas & New year I went to Mysore. I visited Cem for 1 week and did some Ashtanga Yoga. Mysore is so beautiful, very good City! And so many international people are the. We had some rooftop parties and I met some new friends. Also I learned first time about alignment. I want to learn more now! Its so good to know the Asana pose correctly. I have a lot to learn! ^_^ I thank God so much that I can make all this experience now! That I got the change to grow and really learn… I hope I will become a good teacher and give all the knowledge further to others. |
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