After a 24 hour flight I finaly came to Bangalore at Wednesday. My luggage was missing, and I go it only yesterday and today... 2 backs they brought me in 2 days. :-D ... They forgot it in London. :-P ... Last few days I went only shopping here and still is not everything done. But I met through my boyfriend cousin a nice Lady who have an Ashram for meditation nearby. She will teach me also from now on. We begun to sit in a comfortable position (mostly leggs ae crossed that we don`t move so much) and than we need to think to every part of our body, that it is getting relaxed. Once you are relaxed you begin to imagine that there is a divine light in your heart. And this at long as possible... . Today we went to the University Campus, they had a room to take lunch for foreightners and VIP and a room for indian citizens and a room for workers. Jays Cousin and her Husband were not suposed to go inside with me in the foreighners room, only me. Its again like a Kast-systhem. I really didn't like, so I went with them first by accident in the workers room. It was a mess inside. Very dirty. The student room was a little better, but also difficult to say it was nice and clean. Only the foreightners room was nice and clean. It was a not a good sign for me to see that. They believe we are all god, we are all equal and only oneness. One and the same energy. How? Why they do this and categorise people? ...But let`s see I will check for one month and than I decide if I can stay there for 15 months.
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In 12 days is my flight to india and my new life will begin. But in the meantime I´ve been testet to be patient. The University didn't sent me until now the correct YIC certificate for my Student Visum and Jay and me are calling and also my friend Surendra is calling people there. I don't know what the problem is. I can only wait now. Maybe tomorrow they will send me the certificate and I can go to apply for Visa. Last weekend I thought I will celebrate my last halloweenparty in Berlin, but party is not anymore what it was some years back... So nothing much I will miss. Yesterday I was working the last day in the Cloie office and I teached them in photography and today my last Client Lan paid me for my last job. There was a lot of trouble with her in the last months, but I am happy that we came to an understanding and all is fine now. I will not leave Berlin with bad feelings. Surendra told me today something, what made me thinking about many things. People who come here to germany from india, he said, they want only to earn more money. And that's there attitude. Instead of getting to know other people they begin to make group with people they already now. It's true, I can see that here in Berlin. Turkish people are mostly with turkish people and indians with indians. There are rare exeptions to see. Maybe because some are only not interested so much in money, like my boyfriend, but that is maybe also why we found eachother, because I am also not seeking wealth and I am going to india because I want to know more about life and get teached about thousand years old wisdom. That is the opposite what people generally want. That is why he have no friends here he say. People are mostly selfish here and try to use something always for themself. ither that they will feel good or that they are not alone or for business purpose. When I think about my friends I must say he is not so wrong about it. But I don't like to be like that. Mostly people think that they will be happy with a good job and earning some good money. But that is an Illusion I believe, thats why I will do something different. I need to know more about our existence. Of course I hope also I will have a good life in india. But I am sure, that with a good intension, positive thinking and effort in learning, I will have my good life too. I am so happy I have Jay, who support me a lot and I am sure that I also will meet people who seeks the same. Thats great because I believe I could get also REAL friendship out of it. Fact is, our reality is the result about our action and what we think. It's not that easy, but we need to think more big. |
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